Awfully Good

I feel as if I’m losing myself.

leilockheart
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As I’ve learned in my beginner’s Psych class, you go through those stages of self-discovery throughout your teenage years, so why is it now that I feel as though the identity I worked so hard to maintain and cultivate is slowly being chipped away? Usually the friendly, approachable, and outgoing type, now I find it difficult to even feign interest in conversation with colleagues and acquaintances. I find it so hard to obtain that commonality with others which used to be so simple and build upon it to enhance interpersonal relationships. Or the disciplined filial daughter, instead I find myself in situations where Mother would sure disapprove. I lack the self-confidence that I used to exude, and don’t smile as much as before. I find that I like who I was a lot better then who I’m becoming, and I don’t know how to get back. Going back to the past defies all laws of physics, but I’d rather go back to my past then face what I become in the future.

If you met yourself ten years from now, would you recognize you?

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